Edmund is back and i went to school ;D

Break up or what is up to me, you're okay with anything.
That's the last sentence you told me.

Just like what you say relationship is not only about love.
I know I told you I wouldn't want to lose you but I'm not proving anything to you.
Exams is just next week. I'm playing and slacking around.
I didn't follow my timetable when I keep telling you I will.
I even promise you myself saying I'll study hard when you're not around.

There are so many times I wanted to give you up but I can't.
Everything is within my control.
Seriously being with you is stressful.
I have to study hard, worrying those girls surround you.
But I enjoy all the times I'm with you, those sweet words you told me.
All these keep me hanging on.

I know I've not been trying hard enough.
I love to have fun and I FUCKING HATE TO STUDY.
I'm not trying to say all these saying how good I am to change for you.

I know you think that I'm trying without effort.
YES, I put in very little effort.
I can't, whenever i saw a book i will fall asleep.
I fucking hate to touch books.

Nobody like to study but we don't have a choice because we're living in Singapore.
It's sad that even until now, I do not have any aim in life.
Ya, I'm a failure.
I'm being pampered too much and I thought everything will go in my way.

Sorry, bear with me for a while more.
I know I'm gonna flunk it, but still that's my only hope.
Until my results, I will definitely break up with you when i fail my N level.
If I fail, I'm sorry for wasting you so much time.

I know I'll never change until the day I lose you.